GIRL THAT FOUGHT ANOREXIA
1.Hi Marketa. I would like you to share your experience with anorexia. How old were you, how it happened and the most important, was it all because of modeling?
My life with anorexia started four years ago, so I was sixteen at that time. How did it all happen? That’s something I would like to know as well! It’s hard to blame anyone. It’s all about your mind, but in these times where social media is so important, it’s definitely easier to get eating disorders, when everyone wants to look like those models on the front page of Vogue. Trust me, as a model, I can tell you that even we wish we could look like our own images.
2. When you got anorexia were you aware of it? How long did it take you to realize that this condition wasn’t healthy?
A very long time. I would like to explain to people that have never had an eating disorder, just how hard it is to actually realize that the way your brain sees you in the mirror is not the same image of how you look in reality. Anorexia was like my best friend. You started to live for being skinny.
3. How does it feel to be that skinny, what was your weight at that time?
When I am looking back at my old pictures I can finally see how thin I was, but back then I was feeling fat even at my lowest weight, 38kg. Girls think that to be super skinny is a goal in life. Well, it’s just totally the opposite. You are always cold, even in the summer. Sooner or later you will run out of energy as being in the gym 24/7 trying to burn all the calories is simply destroying you. Your hair will start falling out and your nails will be splitting. The body needs nutrition and when it doesn’t have it, it will cut out the energy to your organs. Not to mention, I didn’t have my period for almost 4 years because of it. The list really does go on and on but, long story short, you might be happy that you are skinny at the moment, but if you think about your future, you are going to totally destroy it.
4. Have you worked with those measurements and on which markets?
I did, unfortunately. Mostly in Asia, let’s say that the Japanese market is obsessed with skinny girls but they are not the only one. Paris, London, Milan, New York, It’s just how it is in modeling, they want you to be tall and skinny.
5. How long did it take you to get back to a healthy weight and how do you feel now?
This is a journey that will last a lifetime. Anorexia was a big part of my life. I have learned a lot from it and now I know, I would never do this to my body again. My life is very different now. Since Iˇve started recovering from anorexia nervosa, I can say I am happier than ever before. As I have now started to appreciate and see happiness in more important things other than just having a thigh gap between my legs.
6. Do you think that the modeling industry has changed in the last couple of years in terms of accepting body differences and hiring models with healthy weight and curves?
Itˇs hard to say. Since I gained weight and I started to look more like a woman (rather than just a coat hanger…)I have had many modeling opportunities in cities like Los Angeles, Mexico City or even Hamburg in Germany. These markets are more commercial based, so they actually love when women are healthy looking. Hopefully, in the future, there will be a big change but at the moment I can’t really see it.
7. What is your message for models with eating disorders?
Not only for models, but I would also like to share this with everyone. You are enough, you are worthy. No one is you and that is your superpower. Let go of who you think you are supposed to be and be who you are.